daddy out of town

tonight my husband is out of town for the night at his parents and has some stuff do to tomorrow. its his first time away from matthew and I at night. matthew is doing great. me. not so much. im so tired, but i cannot sleep at all. michael is like my swaddle. its like if i all of a sudden i didnt swaddle matthew up tonight, he wouldnt be sleeping too well. so the same. i dont have michael to wrap his arms around me all night and squeeze me tighter when matthew squeaks, telling me, "hes fine. go to sleep." ah. its ok. my sister said she would come sleep with me if i really needed it. ill give it another try once my second wind is gone and i feel really tired again. i love you michael, come home soon.