Looking Back and Forward

Sometimes when I look back and read what I wrote about motherhood when Matthew was a newborn, I just want to cringe. I just complained a lot and sounded miserable. And while lots of it was depression, ( you know it was depression when you thought your 2 month old was manipulating you but now think your 18 month old could do nothing of the sort) I have a whole new outlook on it now. It's amazing and I wouldn't trade it for anything. I definitely have a different view of it going on to this second baby. Hopefully the transition to having a newborn again will be different this time around. I know I will have two kids this time, but I think I will understand the newborn stage a little better. I hope. Next week I will be in the 30 weeks mark. Crazy. Up to 30 weeks I feel like I am counting up in my pregnancy, now is the count down. Im starting to really feel some Braxton Hicks contractions. Ah. It makes me realize that he is gonna be here before we know it and we gotta start really getting ready now!